When I wake up, the other side of the bed is
cold. My fingers stretch out, seeking Prim's warmth but finding only the rough
canvas of the mattress. She must have had bad dreams and climbed in with our
mother. Of course, she did. This is the day of the reaping.
I prop myself up on
one elbow. There's enough light in the bedroom to see them. My little sister,
Prim, curled up on her side, cocooned in my mothers body, their cheeks pressed
together. In sleep, my mother looks younger, still worn but not so beaten-down.
Prim's face is as fresh as a rain drop, as lovely as the primrose for which she
was named. My mother was very beautiful once, too. Or so they tell me
Sitting at
Prim's knees, guarding her, is the world ugliest cat. Mashed-in nose, half of
one ear missing, eyes the colour of rotting squash. Prim named him Buttercup,
insisting that his muddy yellow coat matched the bright flower. He hates me. Or
at least distrusts me. Even though it was years ago, I think he still remembers
how I tried to drown him in a bucket when Prim brought him home. Scrawny kitten,
belly swollen with worms, crawling with fleas. The last thing I needed was
another mouth to feed. But Prim begged so hard, cried even, I had to let him
stay. It turned out okay. My mother got rid of the vermin and he's a born
mouser. Even catches the occasional rat. Sometimes, when I clean a kill, I feed
Buttercup the entrails. He has stopped hissing at me.
Entrails. No hissing. This
is the closest we will ever come to love.
I swing my legs off the bed and slide
into my hunting boots. Supple leather that has molded to my feat. I pul on a
trousers, a shirt, tick my long dark braid up into a cap, and grab my forage
bag. On the table, under a wooden bowl to protect it from hungry rats and cats
alike, sits a perfect little goat cheese wrapped in basil leaves. Prim's gift to
me on reaping day. I put the cheese carefully in my pocket as I slip outside.
Our part of District 12, nicknames the Seam, is usually crawling with coal
miners heading out to the morning shift at this hour. Men and women with hunched
shoulders, swollen knuckles, many who have long since stopped trying to scrub
the coal dust out of their broken nails, the lined of their sunken faces. But
today the black cinder streets are empty. Shutters on the squat gray houses are
closed. The reaping isn't until two. May as well sleep in. If you can.
Our house
is almost at the edge of the Seam. I only have to pass a few gates to reach the
scruffy field called the Meadow. Separating the Meadow from the woods, in fact
enclosing all of District 12, is a high chain-link fence topped with barbed-wire
loops. In theory, its supposed to be electrified twenty-four hours a day as a
deterrent to the predators that live in the woods - packs of wild dogs, lone
cougars, bears - that used to threaten our streets. But since were lucky to get
two or three hours of electricity in the evenings, its usually safe to touch.
Even so, I always take a moment to listen carefully for the hum that means the
fence is live. Right now, its silent as a stone. Concealed by a clump of bushes,
I flatten out on my belly and slide under a two-foot stretch that's been loose
for years. There are several other weak spots in the fence, but this one is so
close to home I almost always enter the woods here.
As soon as I'm in the trees,
I retrieve a bow and sheath of arrows from a hollow log. Electrified or not, the
fence has been successful at the flesh-eaters out of District 12. Inside the
woods they roam freely, and there are added concerns like venomous snakes, rabid
animals, and no real path to follow. But there's also food if u know how to find
it. My father knew and he taught me some before he was blown to bits in a mine
explosion. There was nothing even to bury. I was eleven then. Five years later,
I still wake up screaming from him to run.
Even though trespassing in the woods
is illegal and poasching carries the severest of penalties, more people would
risk it if they had weapons. But most are not bold enough to venture out with
just a knife. My bow is a rarity, crafted by my father along with a few others
that I keep well hidden in the woods, carefully wrapped in waterproof covers. My
father could have made good money selling them, but if the officails found out
he would have been publicly executed for inciting a rebellion. Most of the
Peacekeepers turn a blind eye to the hew of us who hunt because they're as
hungry for fresh meat as anybody is. In fact, they're among our best customers.
But the idea that someone might be arming the Seam would never been allowed.
In
the fall, a few brave souls sneak into the woods to harvest apples. But always
in sight of the Meadow. Always close enough to run back to the safety if
District 12 if trouble arises. "District 12. Where you can starve in safety," I
mutter. Then I glance quickly over my shoulder. Even here, even in the middle of
nowhere, you worry someone might overhear you.
When I was younger, I scared my
mother to death, the things I would blurt out about District 12, about the
people who rule our country, Panem, from the far-off called the Capitol.
Eventually I understood this would only lead us to more trouble. So I learned to
hold my tongue and to turn ever read my thoughts. Do my work quietly in school.
Make only polite small talk in the public market. Discuss little more than
trades in the Hob, which is the black market where I make most of my money. Even
at home,where I am less pleasant, I avoid discussing tricky topics. Like the
reapling, or food shortage, or the Hunger Games. Prim might begin to repeat my
words and then where would we be?
In the woods waits the only person with whom I
can be myself. Gale. I can feel the muscles in my face relaxing, my pace
quickening as I climb the hills to our place, a rock ledge overlooking a valley.
A thicket of berry bushes protects it from unwanted eyes. The sight of him
waiting there brings on a smile. Gale says I never smile except in the woods.
"Hey, Catnip" says Gale. My real name is Katniss, but when I first told him, I
had barely whispered it. So he thought I'd said Catnip. Then when this crazy
lynx started following me around the woods looking for handouts, it became his
official nickname for me. I finally had to kill the lynx because he scared off
game. I almost regretted it because he wasn't bad company. But I got a decent
price for his pelt.
"Look what I shot." Gale holds up a loaf of bread with an
arrow stuck in it, and I laugh. Its real bakery bread, not the flat dense loaves
we make from our grain rations. I take it in my hands, pull out the arrow, and
hold the puncture in the crust to my nose, inhaling the fragrance that make my
mouth flood with saliva. Fine bread like this is for special occasions.
"Mm,
still warm," I say. He must have been at the bakery at the crack of dawn to
trade for it. "What did it cost you?"
"Just a squirrel. Think the old man was
feeling sentimental this morning," says Gale. "Even wished me luck"
"Well, we
all feel a little closer today, don't we?" I say, not even bothering to roll my
eyes. "Prim left us a cheese." I pull it out.
His expression brightens at the
treat. "Thank you, Prim. We'll have a real feast." Suddenly he falls into a
Capitol accent as he mimics Effie Trinket, the manically upbeat woman who
arrives once a year to read out the names at the reaping. "I almost forgot!
Happy Hunger Games!" He plucksa few blackberries from the bushes around us. "And
may the odds-" he tosses a berry in a high arc toward me.
I catch it in my mouth
and break the delicate skin with my teeth. The sweet tartness explodes across my
tongue. "-be ever in your favor!" I finish with equal verve. We have to joke
about it because the alternative is to be scared out of your wits. Besides, the
Capitol accent is so affected, almost anything sounds funny in it.
I watch as
Gale pulls out his knife and slices the bread. He could be my brother. Straight
black hair, olive skin, we even have the same gray eyes. But we're not related,
at least not closely. Most of the families who work the mines resemble one
another this way.
That's why my mother and Prim, with their light hair and blue
eyes, always look out of place. They are. My mother's parents were part of the
small merchant class that caters to officials, Peacekeepers, and the occasional
Seam customer. They ran an apothecary shop in the nicer part of District 12.
Since almost no one can afford doctors, apothecary are our healers. My father
got to know my mother because on his hunts he would sometimes collect medicinal
herbs and sell them to her shop to be brewed into remedies. She must have really
loved him to leave her home for the Seam. I try to remember that when all I can
see is the women who sar by, bland and unreachable, while her children turned to
skin and bones. I try to forgive her for my fathers sake. But to be honest, I'm
not the forgiving type.
Gale spreads the bread slices with the soft goat cheese,
carefully placing a basil leaf on each while I strip the bushes of their
berries. We settle back in a nook in the rocks. From this place, we are
invisible but have a clear view of the valley, which is teeming with summer
life, greens to gather, roots to dig, fish iridescent in the sunlight. The day
is glorious, with blue sky and soft breeze. The food's wonderful, with the
cheese seeping into the warm bread and the berries bursting in our mouths.
Everything would be perfect if this really was a holiday, if all the day off
meant was roaming the mountains with Gale, hunting for tonight's supper. But
instead we have to be standing in the square at two o'clock waiting for the
names to be called out.
"We could do it you know," Gale says quietly.
"What?" I
ask.
"Leave the district. Run off. Live in the woods. You and I, we could make
it," says Gale
I don't know how to respond. The idea is so preposterous.
"If we
didn't have so many kids," he adds quickly.
They're not out kids, of course. But
they might as well be. Gale's two little brothers and a sister. Prim. And you
may as well throw in our mothers, too, because how would they live without us?
Who would fill those mouths that are always asking for more? With both of us
hunting daily, there are still nights when game has to be swapped for lard or
shoelace or wool, still nights when we go too bed with our stomachs growling.
"
I never want to have any kids," I say
" I might. If I didn't live here," says
Gale.
"But you do," I say, irritated.
"Forget it," he snaps back.
The
conversation feels wrong. Leave? How could I leave Prim, who is the only person
in the world I'm certain I love? And Gale is devoted to his family. We can't
leave, so why bother talking about it? And even if we did... even if we did ...
where did this stuff about having kids come from? There's never been anything
romantic between Gale and me. When we met, I was a skinny twelve-year-old, and
even if he was only two years older, he already looked like a man. It took a
long time for us to even become friends, to stop haggling over trade and begin
helping each other out.
Besides, if he wants kids, Gales won't have any trouble
finding a wife. He's good-looking, he's strong enough to handle the work in the
mines, and he can hunt. You can tell by the way girls whisper about him when he
walks by in school that they want him. It makes me jealous but not for the
reason people would think. Good hunting partners are hard to find.
"What do you
want to do?" I ask. We can hunt, fish, or gather.
"Let's fish at the lake. We
can leave our poles and gather in the woods. Get something nice for tonight," he
says
Tonight after the reaping, everyone is supposed to be celebrating. And a
lot of people do, out of relief that their children have been spared for another
year. But at least two families will pull the shutter, close the doors, and try
to figure out how they will survive the painful weeks to come.
We make out well.
The predators ignore us on a day when easier, tastier prey abounds. By late
morning, we have a dozen fish, a pack of greens and, best of all, a gallon of
strawberries. I found the patch a few years ago, but Gale had the idea to string
mush nests around it to keep out the animals.
On the way home, we swing by the
Hob, the black market that operates in an abandoned warehouse that once held
coal. When they came up with a more efficient system that transported the coals
directly from the mines to the trains, the Hob gradually took over the space.
Most businesses are closed by this time on reaping day, but the black markets
still fairly busy. We easily trade six of the fish for good bread, the other two
for salt. Greasy Sea, the bony old women who sells bowls of hot soup from a
large kettle, takes half the greens of our hands in exchange for a couple of
chunks of paraffin. We might to a tad better elsewhere, but we keep an effort to
keep on good terms with Greasy Sea. She's the only one who can consistently be
counted on to buy wild dog. We don't hunt them on purpose, but if you're
attacked and u take out a dog or two, well, meat is meat. "Once its in the soup,
I'll call it beef," Greasy Sea says with a wink. No one in the Seam would turn
up their nose at a good leg of a wild dog, but the Peacekeepers who come to the
Hob can afford to be a little choosier.
When we finish our business at the
market, we go to the back door of the mayors house to sell half the
strawberries, knowing he has a particular fondness for them and can afford our
price. The mayors daughter, Madge, opens the door. She's in my year at school.
Being the mayors daughter, you'd expect her to be a snob, but she's all right.
She just keeps to herself. Like me. Since neither of us really has a group of
friends, we seem to end up together a lot at school. Eating lunch, sitting next
to each other in assemblies, partnering for sport activities. We rarely talk,
which suits us both just fine.
Today her drab school outfit has been replace by
an expansive white dress, and her blonde hair is done up with a pink ribbon.
Reaping clothes.
"Pretty dress," says Gale
Madge shoots him a loo, trying to see
if its a genuine compliment or if he's just being ironic. It is a pretty dress,
but she would never be wearing it ordinarily. She presses her lips together and
then smiles. "Well. If I end up going to the Capitol, I want to look nice, don't
I ?"
Now its Gales turn to be confused. Does she mean it? Or is she messing with
him? I'm guessing the second.
"You won't be going to the Capitol," says Gale
coolly. His eyes land on a small, circular pin that adorns her dress. Real gold.
Beautifully crafted. It could keep a family in bread for months. "What can u
have? Five entries? I had six when I was just 12 years old."
"That's not her
fault," I say.
"No its no ones fault. Just the way it is," says Gale.
Madge's
face has become closed off. She puts the money for the berries in my hand. "Good
luck, Katniss"
"You too," I say, and the door closes.
We walk towards the Seam
in silence. I don't like that Gale took a dig at Madge, but he's right, of
course. The reaping system is unfair, with the poor getting the worst of it. You
become eligible for reaping the day you turn twelve. That year, your name is
entered once. At thirteen, twice. And so on and so on until you reach the age of
eighteen, the final year of eligibility, when your name goes in the pool seven
times. That's true for every citizen in all twelve districts in the entire
country of Panem.
But here's that catch. Say you are poor and staving as we are.
You can opt to add your name more times in exchange for tesserea. Each tesserea
is worth a meagre year's supply of grain and oil for one person. You may do this
for each of your family members as well. So, at the age of twelve I had my name
entered four times. Once because I had to, and three times for tesserea for
grain and oil for myself, Prim and my mother. In fact, every year I have needed
to do this. And the entries cumulative. So now, at the age of sixteen, my name
will be in the reaping twenty times. Gale, who is eighteen and has either been
helping or single-handedly feeding a family of five for seven years, will have
his name in forty-two times.
You can see why someone like Madge, who has never
been at risk of needing tesserea, can set him off. The chance of her name being
drawn is very slim compared to those of us who live at the Seam. Not impossible,
but slim. And even though the rules were set up by the Capitol, not the
districts, certainly not Madge's family, its hard not to resent those who don't
have to sign up for tesserea.
Gale knows his anger at Madge is misdirect. On
other days, deep in the woods, I've listened to him rant about how the tesserea
are another tool to cause misery in our districts. A way to plant hatred between
the starving workers of the Seam and those who can generally count on supper and
thereby ensure we will never trust one another. "Its to the Capitol's advantage
to have us divided among ourselves," he might say if there were no ears to hear
but mine. If it wasn't reaping day. If a girl with a gold pin and no tesserea
had not made what I'm sure she thought was a harmless comment.
As we walk, I
glance over at Gale's face, still smoldering underneath his stony expression.
His rages seem pointless to me, although I never say so. Its not that u don't
agree with him. I do. But what is yelling about the Capitol in the middle of the
woods? It doesn't change anything. It doesn't make things fair. It doesn't fill
our stomachs. In fact, it scares off the nearby game. I let him yell though.
Better he does it in the woods than in the district.
Gale and I divide our
spoils, leaving two fish, a couple of loaves of good bread, greens, a quarter if
strawberries, salt, paraffin, and a bit of money for each.
"See you in the
square," I say.
"Wear something pretty," he says flatly.
At home, I find my
mother and sister are ready to go. My mother wears a fine dress from her
apothecary days. Prim is in my first reaping outfit, a skirt and ruffle blouse.
Its a bit big on her, but my mother has made it stay with pins. Even so, she's
having trouble keeping the blouse tucked in at the back.
A tub of warm water
waits for me. I scrub off the dirt and sweat from the woods and even wash my
hair. To my surprise, my mother has laid out one of her lovely dresses for me. A
soft blue thing with matching shoes.
"Are you sure?" I ask. I'm trying to get
past rejecting offers of he'll from her. For a while, I was so angry, I wouldn't
allow her to do anything for me. And this is something special. Her clothes from
her past are very precious to her.
"Of course. Let's put your hair up, too," she
says. I let her towel-dry it and braid it up on my head. I can hardly recognise
myself in the cracked mirror that leans against the wall.
"You look beautiful,"
says Prim in a hushed voice.
"And nothing like myself," I say. I hug her,
because I know these next few hours will be terrible for her. Her first reaping.
She's about as safe as you can get, since she's only entered once. I wouldn't
let her take out any tesserea. But she's worried about me. That the unthinkable
might happen.
I protect Prim in every way I can, but I'm powerless against the
reaping. The anguish I always feel when she's in pain wells up in my chest and
threatens to register on my face. I notice her blouse has pulled out of her
skirt in the back again and force myself to stay calm. "Tuck your tail in,
little duck," I say, smoothing in the blouse back in place.
Prim giggles and
gives me a small "Quack."
"Quack yourself," I say with a light laugh. The kind
only Prim can draw out of me. "Come on, let's eat," I saw and plant a quick kiss
on the top of her head.
The fish and greens are already cooking in a stew, but
that will be for supper. We decide to save the strawberries and bakery bread for
this evening's meal, to make it special we say. Instead we drink milk from
Prim's goat, Lady, and eat the rough bread made from the tesserea grain,
although no one has much appetite anyway.
At one o'clock, we head for the
square. Attendance is mandatory unless your on death's door. This evening,
officials will come around and check to see if this is the case. If not, you'll
be imprisoned.
Its not bad, really, that they hold the reaping in the square -
one of the few places in District 12 that can be pleasant. The square's
surrounded by shops, and on public market days, especially if there's good
weather, it has a holiday feel to it. But today, despite the bright banners
hangingwqa on the building, there's and air of grimness. The camera crews,
perched like buzzards on rooftops, only add to the effect.
People file in
silently and sign in. The reaping is a good opportunity for the Capitol to keep
tabs on population as well. Twelve- through eighteen-year-olds are herded into
roped areas marked off by ages, the oldest in the front, the young ones, like
Prim, towards the back. Family members line up around the perimeter, holding
tightly to one another's hands. But there are others, too, who have no one they
love at stake, or who no longer care, who slip among the crowd, taking bets on
the two kids whose names will be drawn. Odds are given on their ages, whether
they're Seam or merchants, if they will break down and weep. Most refuse dealing
with the racketeers but carefully, carefully. These same people tend to be
informers, and who hasn't broken the law? I could be shot on a daily basis for
hunting, but the appetites of those in charge protect me. Not everyone can claim
the same.
Anyway, Gale and I agree that if we choose between dying of hunger and
a bullet in the head, the bullet would be much quicker.
The space gets tighter,
more claustrophobic as people arrive. The square's quite large, but not enough
to hold District 12's population of eight thousand. Latecomers are directed to
the adjacent streets, where they can watch the event on screens as its televised
live by the state.
I find myself standing in a clump of sixteen from the Seam.
We all exchange terse nods then focus our attention on the temporary stage that
is set up before the Justice Building. It holds three chairs, a podium, and two
large glass balls, one for the boys and one for the girls. I stare at the paper
slips in the girls' ball. Twenty of them have Katniss Everdeen written on them
in careful handwriting.
Two of the three chairs fill with Madge's father, Mayor
Undersee, who's a tall, balding man, and Effie Trinket, District 12's escort,
fresh from the Capitol with her scary white grin, pinkish hair, and spring green
suit. They murmur to each othe and then look with concern at the empty seat.
Just as the town clock strikes two, the mayor steps up to the podium and begins
to read. Its the same story every year. He tells the history of Panem, the
country that rose up out of the ashes of a place that was once called North
America. He lists the disasters, the droughts, the storms, the land, the brutal
war for what little sustenance remaind. The result was Panem, a shining Capitol
ringed by thirteen districts, which brought peace and prosperity to its
citizens. Then came the Dark Days, the uprising of the districts against the
Capitol. Twelve were defeated, the thirteenth obliterated. The Treaty of Treason
gave us the new laws to guarantee peace and, as our yearly reminder that the
Dark Days may never be repeated, it gave us the Hunger Games.
The rules of the
Hunger Games are simple. In punishment for the uprising, each of the twelve
districts must provide one girl and one boy, called tributes, to participate.
The twenty-four tributes will be imprisoned in a vast outdoor arena that could
hold anything from a burning desert to a frozen wasteland. Over a period of
several weeks, the competitors must fight to death. The last tribute standing
wins.
Taking the kids from our district, forcing them to kill one another while
we watch - whis is the Capitol's way of reminding us how totally we are at their
mercy. How little chance we would stand of surviving another rebellion. Whatever
words they use, the real message is real. "Look how we take your children and
sacrifice them and there's nothing u can do. If u lift a finger, we will destroy
every last one of you. Just as we did in District Thirteen"
To make it
humiliating as well as torturous, the Capitol requires us to treat the Hunger
Games as a festivity, a sporting event pitting every districts against the
others. The last tribute alive receives a life of ease back home, and their
district will be showered with prizes, largely consisting food. All year, the
Capitol will show the winning districts gifts of grain and oil and even
delicacies like sugar while the rest of us battle starvation.
"It is both a time
for repentance and a time for thanks," in tones the Mayor.
Then he reads the
list of past District 12 victors. In seventy-four years, we have exactly two.
Only one is still alive. Haymitch Abernathy, a paunchy, middle-aged man, who at
this moment appears hollering something unintelligible, staggers onto the stage,
and falls into the third chair. He's drunk. Very. The crowd responds with its
token applause, but he's confused and tries to give Effie Trinket a big hug,
which she barely manages to fend off.
The mayor looks distressed. Since all of
this is being televised, right know District 12 is the laughing stock of Panem,
and he knows it. He quickly tries to pull the attention back to the reaping by
introducing Effie Trinket.
Bright and bubbly as ever, Effie Trinkets trots to
the podium and give her signature, "Happy Hunger Games! And may the odds be ever
in your favour!" Her pink hair must be a wig because her curls have shifted
slightly off center since her encounter with Haymitch. She goes on a bit about
what an honour it is to be here, although everyone knows she's just aching to
get bumped up to a better districts where they have proper victors, not drunks
who molest you in front of the entire nation.
Through the crowd, I spot Gale
looking back at me with a ghost of a smile. As reapings go, this one at least
has a slight entertainment factor. But suddenly I am thinking about Gale and his
forty-two names in that big glass bowl and how the odds are not in his favour.
Not compared to a lot of the boys. And maybe he's thinking the same about me
because his face darkens and turns away. "But there are still thousand of
slips," I wish I could whisper to him.
Its time for the drawing. Effie Trinket
says as she always does, "Ladies first!" And crosses to the glass ball with the
girls' names. She reaches in, digs her hand deep into the ball, and pulls out a
slip of paper. The crowd draws in a collective breathe and then you can hear a
pin drop, and I'm feeling nauseous and desperately hoping that its not me, that
its not me, that its not me.
Effie Trinket crosses back to the podium, smoothes
the slip of paper, and reads out the name in a clear voice. And it not me.
Its
Primrose Everdeen.
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